Last 2 days of 2009

2009 has been an interesting year for me and my friends. Some terrific things happened (we adopted jeremy) and some not so great things (dad is back in the nursing home for good). As I sit and reflect on things in my life I realize how blessed I am to have a job, good friends and family that I love. I know many people have had a horrible year so here is my prayer for you all...may you find peace and happiness in 2010, may all your goals be attainable and all your dreams become a reality.

I am going to list my goals here, so once in writing I might be compelled to achieve them. I would like to accomplish a lot of things in 2010, most importantly I need to take control of my health. I have been struggling with weight issues lately and asthma. I need to get proactive and get my ass in gear. I am so wrapped up in caring for everyone else in my life I let my needs fall to the side. I kept saying I will get to it and I don't. It is time to address the asthma and anemia and start feeling better. Then to focus on really eating better for my health and so I can feel better when I am with the kids. You only get one chance to live life and this is not the way I want to live it, I want to be around to see my children have children. My mom told me this morning my great grandmother died from asthma in her 40's, well I am rapidly approaching my 40's and it is time to get this under control. I have denied it long enough, I am tired of being winded from that and the weight. I suspect if I lose enough weight the asthma will get better too.

I would also like to start saving so I can take family vacations with my kids, I would love to take them to legoland this summer. I am working hard at getting all the debt paid off so I can have options when the kids are ready for school. I have been researching private schools here and the numbers make my brain hurt. Of course I will have that number times 3 since all of my kids will be in the same grade (it is how the birthdays fall, the boys miss the cutoff). I have several years to accomplish this so I believe it is doable. I would like to start making more memories with the family now that they are getting older. The boys will be starting toddler ninja's next month and I am really excited for them. Natalie is too young for the class but as soon as she is 2, she will be right beside them. I am looking forward to them playing sports, especially Jeremy he seems so very talented with his abilities already.

I will also be making more time for myself next year. I started this one already. I went to the movies with a friend and turned off my phone. I am taking a trip to NY in January with my daughter (first girls trip). I went for a pedi last weekend. I need some me time and to be more than a full time employee and a full time mommy. As much as I love being with my kids I need the stress relief of being with friends, socially and outside the house.

I hope everyone takes a moment to reflect on the last year and see where you can make improvements for your happiness and health. It is important we continue to grow as people as well as nurture our little people. I wish you all happiness and fufillment in 2010. What more can we ask for?

December update

Well it has been some time since I posted anything here, so I figured it was time. Since I have not had a voice in 11 days I will take to the keyboard. Lately things have been good, the kids are growing like weeds, I finished my Christmas shopping (yay) and I got the lights up this weekend. I started the inside decorating but it has been very slow going. I have a bad case of bronchitis and have not had the energy to do it. I know it is getting closer to x-mas and needs to get done, but I figure I will do a little each night. Tonight I will let the kids decorate the tree. It will be a little different looking this year, none of my cherished ornaments will be on it for fear they will break them. I will have the Wal-Mart tree this year, but that is ok at least the kids have a tree right? It was very cute when I put the tree up last night, the boys think the lights are candles and they keep trying to blow them out. Not so cute was when they started throwing their toys into the tree, then attempting to retrieve them. I moved the tree to a more secure location, Jeremy threw a ball in there and learned he will not be getting it back. I say this not only to teach him, but honestly where the tree is it would be damn near impossible for me to get to it! Natalie liked the lights she kept going over to the tree and checking it out. My favorite reaction was the boys seeing the lights out front, I took them out after dark and when I opened the door they were just saying “oh wow! oh wow!” Totally worth the effort. I am glad I got it done too, since it is freezing cold here (yes we go below freezing here).



My boys have taken to wrestling and flinging each other around the room. They will grab hands and start running, one dragging the other. They also use a blanket (nite-nite) to use in between them too. It usually ends badly with one crying that the other stole his nite-nite. Natalie usually sits with me on the Lazy-boy and takes it in. We watched a chick flick together last night, I see a tradition starting here. Natalie is getting so big now, she has reached 25th percentile for weight and is in between 25 and 50th percentile for height. My little preemie is catching up! She is only 5 inches shorter than her tallest brother (Jeremy). At least she will be able to keep up with them when they are older.


So it is snowing in our mountains today, one to two feet. I would love to take the kids up to see it when I get better. We took Natalie and Jeremy last year but Cuba has yet to see snow. Jeremy thought it was child abuse and Natalie was so small and bundled up so tight I am not even sure she was awake. I would love to try a little bit of sledding with them, not sure how long I will last though. I think last year we lasted 20 minutes! Of course that doesn’t include the 20 minutes of walking from the car to the sledding area and then back to the car. Those ditches can be tricky to maneuver when carrying an infant! One day I will get to take them skiing yay!!! Or they can snowboard their choice. I am a very bad, aspiring snowboarder. I have taken lessons in CO and still not made much improvement. My brother wants to go skiing in Utah this winter, maybe I will try again.


Well enough for now. I will try to post more regularly in the future. Hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving.

My crazed Sunday

Well the weekend was interesting...I got Tony to take the boys out of the house so I could get down to the much needed scrubbing. My kitchen was taken apart, steam cleaned and then reassembled. The floor is so clean you can slide across it...love it! I also steamed the stains in the rug, the gate that was peed on and the couches. Next stop deep clean the upstairs. Tony (bless his heart) cleaned the carpet downstairs with the big ole carpet steamer...good job hon!


Now Sunday was a treat. I got an e-mail at 5:30 AM calling me to work, after I realized yet another router has died (no more Linksys for me) I had to work from the bedroom where all the boys were sleeping...my bedroom. Yup the boys decided they were sleeping with us on Saturday night and we would just have to deal with it and sleep around them. So after being on my call with Cuba in the background going "mama?" and Tigger and Pooh for background noise we were wrapped up around 8. After we were all up and dressed and fed we headed to Wal-Mart...not fun. The kids threw a fit for fruit and had a total meltdown in Sonic because the lady could not cook fast enough...mind you I had already fed them before going. Thankfully Sonic has the apple slices choice so we made it home alive.


So in a bad decision I went upstairs to install the router with Nat (it was super easy and up in literally minutes) then it got real quiet in the LR where I left the boys. I get back down and they are in their fort all shiny and laughing. Cuba grabbed the Vaseline from the pack and play and smeared it all over the love seat, and one of the other couches, not to mention themselves and a blanket in their fort. Break out the steamer AGAIN. No one would nap yesterday so I had to deal with overtired whiny "blessings" all day. LOL. Well by the time Tony got home I was ready to run screaming for the hills, but we fed, bathed and I escaped to Nattie's room with her to put her down. Honestly I look forward to my time with her one on one, we duet until she falls asleep. She really has the calmest room in the house, I love how the nursery came out it is very serene. Since the boys were still screeching it took some time to get her down.


Oh did I crash hard last night and thankfully so did the kids. So here we go Monday lets see how this one turns out.


I am planning the boys' birthday party at the Children's Museum and sending out the placeholders for Jeremy's adoption day...November 5th!! I am so excited he will finally be ours. Mom is coming for the adoption and party (she will be here a week YAY!) and I have a birthday party to go to this weekend. I have some things to look forward too woot woot. It is very easy to get stuck in the rut of life, it is nice to shake it up again. I also have a baby shower on Saturday, Natalie is coming with me lets hope she is not all over the wine racks this time...the last shower we went to she kept taking out the wine and even dropped a wine glass she grabbed behind my back (literally I was holding her and she reached behind). Thankfully there was a rug on the floor and the glass did not break, but she was a wild woman! I see I will have lots of upcoming blog posts about her exploits!

Here we go

Well I finally did it and used my ever dormant google account to set up my blog. I think I might lose my mind, so instead I will just keep track of the random thoughts in my head on here so maybe they can be used for my insanity plea later. So the in laws have landed. It took me several days to get them off my couch and into their already paid for apartment, it was like they didn't want to leave. Them and their 2 stinking dogs/rats that peed in my house- but hey they are housebroken! pffffttt. So on Wednesday I took the keys to their apartment, grabbed the kids and ran. We had a nice time having dinner there ALONE and then put together the excuse for them not to leave, the futon. There were 2 missing pieces one I had to fashion from a piece of plastic and use matches to burn off the one end since I had no sharp objecs nearby (I did try to gnaw it off but thought better of it) I used a match or 3 and a butter knife to make the closed end an open one so it would form a sheath to go over the screw and make the damn thing slide. Since I was missing a nut as well, we had to pile into the car and head to Lowes...always fun with 3 toddlers. But I survived and went home to clean house literally and figuratively. I will be scrubbing for weeks to come as I find more "gifts" left behind.

I cannot even find the words to describe the week I have had. I am curious to see how this all works out right...if it continues on this path there is going to be trouble.